I sit in my car on my way to classes and I burst out into tears. In the middle of class I burst out in tears, I listen to the radio in my room and cry. I'm crying as I type this. I don't think that I have ever seen something that moves me this way and it is a pretty awful feeling. I have been a zombie since Tuesday and I don't have any family in the area of either tragedy. I think that I need to mourn just as much as those who did. It won't be over until there is retribution for the people whose lives were lost that day. I think that I won't have any closure until that day. I just needed to say that. Thanks for listening.
Erica; Just wanted to let you know, you are not alone. We are all hurting very much. I have not been able to sleep for days. I keep replaying the pictures in my head. We had a view of the Towers from our townhouse and every night i look out and it is just unbelievable that they are not there and that there are thousands of people buried there. Don't know if I will ever have closure. www.creditsense.com
Erica, Thanks for sharing your feelings and emotions. I, also do not have a direct connection to the tragedy, but I find myself bursting into tears at times. I cannot understand why anyone would do this to innocent people. It hurts to watch those pictures over and over again. There are a million different emotions going through my head. I am hopeful that more survivors are found. If anything does my heart good it is hearing stories that someone was found alive. I feel for all those families out there looking for their loved ones. I think to myself how insurmountable it would be if I had a loved one suddenly taken from me in such a tragedy. The trauma this has caused us all is just terrible. I was so afraid to go to sleep on Tuesday because I was afraid to find out what I would wake up to. I just woke up Tuesday morning right before the second plane hit. My radio had the news on and for a little while I wondered if I was still in a dream state. I haven't slept too well since. Your emotions are very understandable. We will manage to survive, but unfortunately, we will be forever scarred.
Erica, I think all our nerves are raw. When I watch the news and they show the people that perished I begin crying because there now is a face to put with that individual. Yesterday, when I was driving around my neighborhood and everyone on the block had their American flag flying, I began crying again because it was so touching. It's just so devastating that so many innocent people had to get caught up in this charade. Not only that, but the men and women who must fight this war and the families they leave behind. I have a whole new respect for them and for this country. Dani
Yes we all are. I cry at the sight of the flag, patriotic music, anything related. This is traumatic for all of us. I do not have a direct connection that I know of yet, but we are all connected to this. Our country has been attacked, our lives interrupted, many many lives lost... we are seeing the individuals who are searching for loved ones, there are pictures of people jumping out of the towers to escape, some already on fire. Anyone who isn't devastated by this has something wrong with them. Our feelings are appropriate. There is nothing wrong with us, our hearts have been broken. I think relief will come in time, as the rubble is removed, and people are accounted for. Closure - I think never. Revenge doesn't bring closure. This will be a boulder in our emotional landscapes forever. We will all go on, we have to. We will never be the same. That is a loss we all have to deal with, and accept, in our own way, just like any other loss.
It's not only the horror that sticks in my throat, but the heroism. People forced to make choices no one should ever have to make. And doing the noble, courageous, even holy thing. The thought of those people in the plane that went down in Pennsylvania brings tears to my eyes. The young man from California (I think?) who called his wife on his cell phone, told her he loved her, told her he knew he was going to die, told her to take good care of their daughter and that he would understand if she remarried. Then told her that he and a few others, knowing they were going to die, were going to fight back against the hijackers so that they would not be able to kill more people on the ground. I mean, these people, knowing they were going to die, knew that they had one more duty to perform. A duty to their country, to people on the ground they had never met. How can you not cry?
Me, too! I'm in tears at the drop of a hat...can't hardly bear to leave family. Can't sleep at all...No, my friend, you are not alone at all! We are grieving!
I started crying while reading your responses. What you have said, is all true. I just hope that noone ever has to feel this way again.
